Sunday, September 30, 2012

Saturday September 29, 2012

Saturday September 29, 2012

I am on retreat with the women of my church and I can honestly say this had been one of the most difficult weekends, foodwise, that I have experienced in a while.

The problem hasn't been temptation this time. It has been the absence of food choices. I'm sure that whoever planned the menus for this retreat must have tried but there was absolutely no consideration for personal food preferences, dietary restrictions, or requirements. The food available has been mostly carb and/or fat laden junk.

The other challenge has been exercise. There is no exercise room here at the "resort" in Desert Hot Springs, and the city outside of the "resort" property is an armpit of a place and I would NEVER run alone on the streets here. So, yeah, getting exercise in has been pretty much impossible.

So anyway, here's what I ate...

Yoplait light yogurt, a banana, an apple and coffee with half and half
4 PointsPlus

About 1/3 of a cup of pulled pork the choices were pulled pork or sloppy joe with white hamburger buns. The only vegetables available were onions and pickles. I had 2 slices of watermelon and 4 chips from a bag of Sun Chips, and a spoonful of the pork mixture. I was hungry and disappointed at the end of the meal.
5 PointsPlus

In the afternoon I had some popcorn chips and an orange
3 PointsPlus

Dinner was to be served by the "resort" staff and I held out hope that it would be quality food and worth the points even if it was food I wouldn't normally choose. By dinner time I was hungry and frustrated and a little grumpy.
The meal began with a spinach salad which, apart from the liberal sprinkling of fake bacon bits, was good. Then the main course was served and what was placed before me was a plate with chopped, pressed chicken, wrapped around a slice of lunch meat, breaded, microwaved and covered with some sort of cheese whiz stuff. There was a soggy rice pilaf mixture and asparagus as well. I began trying to peel some if the breading away to find the "chicken" when it just hit me...I was not eating this crap...period. So my sister and I left and drove to Carl's Junior for a Low carb six dollar burger.
10 PointsPlus

Caramel Corn
7 PointsPlus

Total 29
weekly used 3
Weekly remaining 43

So there it is....

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Friday September 28, 2012

Friday September 28, 2012

Friday morning Weight Watcher meeting. Weigh in: down .8, total 49.2 pounds lost. Getting closer to that 50 pound milestone!!

After the meeting I packed a bag, picked up my sister and headed off for retreat weekend.

We stopped in the old part of Temecula for brunch a a cute little coffee house. I had a Breakfast Crepe with scrambled egg, a thin slice of ham and cheese...and a cup of coffee. I estimated the points at 15 PointsPlus

We spent the day driving to the resort location in Desert Hot Springs and then just shopping and wandering around until it was time to check in.

We found a Kmart with rows and rows of clearance racks with summer clothes for $2.99 each. We had a ball picking out items to buy!

After we checked in to the resort we had dinner in the hotel restaurant. It was an Italian restaurant and I had pasta primavera. It was angel hair pasta with sautéed broccoli, cauliflower, and summer squash, in a buttery, garlic sauce. It was served with a green salad with dressing on the side. I ate a portion of the meal and then had the waitress take it away so I wouldn't keep picking at it. I estimated that I ate about a cup of the pasta and half the vegetables. The sauce didn't seem oily but I counted a tablespoon of butter to be safe. I ate all of the salad. I dipped my fork a couple of times but it didn't really need dressing because there were beets on it, which added flavor and moisture to it. I counted dinner as 10 PointsPlus

We has the first session with the speaker after dinner and then came back to the room. I ate some caramel popcorn which I portioned out into a paper coffee cup so I would know when to stop.

Total 29 PointsPlus
Weekly used 3
Weekly remaining 46
ActiveLink unknown: no computer

I'm happy with how I did :)

Friday, September 28, 2012

Thursday September 27, 2012

Thursday September 27, 2012

Busy day getting ready to go on retreat this weekend. My sister and I are leaving Friday morning for a retreat in Palm Springs with my church's women's ministry. I am looking forward to it so much! Of course the challenge will be to stay on plan when the food choices are out of my control. But that's part of real life so I will do the best I can and call it good.

I started the day with a 4.1 mile interval run. I'm working on increasing the run intervals during these weekday runs.

There was a moment when I was running that was so amazing! It probably won't sound as amazing in the retelling but it was awesome. I started out before the sun was up and I was just running along in the dark, putting one foot in front of the other, listening to my music and the voice commands from my JogLog app, when I realized, all at once, that it was light outside and I was awake and feeling alive and vibrant. I think I may have even giggled a little bit! Honestly, the fact that I run and that I enjoy it is just delightful to me! I remember a time, not so long ago when my Facebook status often said something like "Have I mentioned how much I hate running?" I don't hate it anymore.

Okay, my menu:

Coffee with SF Creamer
Microwave omelet made with Eggbeaters, onion, peppers, spinach, & FF cheese.
Mixed Fruits
3 PointsPlus

Wraps made with one Alternative Pita split in half and filled with Laughing Cow Cheese, 98% FF Ham slices, tomato, spinach, and mustard.
Green Beans
6 PointsPlus

Dinner: (comfort food)
Turkey Burger Patty cooked in 98% FF mushroom soup,
Garlic mashed potatoes,
13 PointsPlus

Greek yogurt mixed with chocolate Weight Watchers smoothie mix and sliced bananas. Yes, I eat some variation of this every day :)
4 PointsPlus

Total 26
Weekly Used 0
Weekly Remaining 0
ActiveLink Points Used 0
ActiveLink Points Earned 9
ActiveLink Points Remaining 28

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Wednesday September 26, 2012

Wednesday September 26, 2012

This was a long day! I'm trying to get everything done at work so I can take Friday off to go on retreat. So I worked from 7 :00am until about 7:30pm. Long day.

Typically these type of long, exhausting days lead to binge snacking behavior when I get home. That didn't happen this time. Or shall I say, I didn't give in to the temptation this time.

We talk in my Weight Watcher meeting about identifying the feeling or what the reward is that we're looking for when we reach for food for reasons other than hunger. After almost three years of hearing these concepts in the meeting room I am finally beginning to actively do the mental exercises of thinking about why I'm reaching for food when I'm not truly hungry. So I had the brilliant realization that after working for twelve hours I wasn't hungry, I was tired!! So I went to bed :) yay me!! Such a simple concept...if I'm tired I need rest, not
(Yes, I am typing this on Thursday morning)

I have no idea when or how the switch in my brain flipped and the concepts we talk about week after week in the meeting room began to be incorporated into my reality. I'm just glad to be making progress. I'm glad I didn't get frustrated and quit when I was struggling and seemingly going nowhere in my weight loss journey. Month after month of going to Friday morning meetings, promising myself that THIS WEEK I was really going to work the program only to falter part way through the week. Months of "starting over" again and again and again.....but I didn't quit. I know in my heart if I would have quit when it felt like I was never going to "get it" I would have gained back all the weight I had lost and then some.

So I guess all of that is to say, if you're reading this and you're tempted to give up DON'T QUIT!!! It's only failure if you quit.

Okay so my menu for Wednesday:

Coffee with SF creamer
Oatmeal with chopped fruit
6 PointsPlus

Sandwich Thin with low fat sliced ham, FF cheese slice, spinach, tomato, mustard and pickles.
Snap peas & grapes
6 PointsPlus

Frozen entree...something Asian
With added Shiritaki noodles, Brummel & Brown spread, and laughing cow cheese.
12 PointsPlus

Sliced apple (afternoon )
Greek yogurt with PB2 peanut butter powder, sliced banana, and a chocolate mini vitacake
5 PointsPlus

Total 30 PointsPlus
Activity Points used 4
Activity Points earned 1
Activity Points remaining 18
Weekly Points remaining 0

Wednesday is a non run day for me and I am supposed to be doing some other form of exercise, like yoga. I've been slacking on that. There's another behavior I'm working on!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Tuesday September 25, 2012

Tuesday September 25, 2012

For someone who wants to reach 50 pounds lost this week, I sure am eating a lot of points....

Busy, stressed, insert favorite excuse here....I don't want to talk about it. There's a challenge. How to continue journaling, blogging, whatever...when I just don't want to talk about it right now.

So, here are the facts. Just the facts.

I started the day with a 3.55 mile jog. Yay me!!

Breakfast sandwich made with egg substitute, a sandwich thin, FF cheese, tomato & spinach.
Orange segments
Coffee with SF creamer
6 PointsPlus

Spinach salad with roast beef, Swiss cheese, strawberries, and a light spray of raspberry balsamic salad spray.
Diet iced tea
5 PointsPlus

(in the car on my way to my Bible study group)
Carl's Junior Turkey Burger
13 PointsPlus

And finally...Snacks...ugh!! The snacks!!
Fage total 0 Greek yogurt with PB2 peanut butter, sliced banana, and a mini vitacake.
6 PointsPlus

100 calorie tortilla with FF cheese, laughing cow light wedge and Brummel & Brown spread.
7 PointsPlus

Total 37
Weekly Points used 11
Weekly remaining 0
ActiveLink Points earned 7
ActiveLink Points remaining 20

Things to celebrate:
I ran 3.55 miles
I tracked every bite
I have 20 activity points left

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Monday September 24, 2012

Monday September 24, 2012

Today was a much better day for me. Something about the structure of the work week is helpful to me.

Oatmeal with fruit
Coffee with SF creamer
5 PointsPlus

GardenBurger Portabello Patty on a
Sandwich Thin with
Spinach and tomato
Sliced carrots
Diet iced tea
5 PointsPlus

Smart Ones Three Cheese Ziti Entree with added Shiritaki noodles and spinach.
Green beans
Butternut Squash with Brummel & Brown spread, Cinnamon, and stevia.
10 PointsPlus


Total 20 PointsPlus
Weekly used 0 / remaining 11
ActiveLink earned 2
Remaining 13

Monday, September 24, 2012

Sunday September 23, 2012

Sunday September 23, 2012

Some days it's difficult to be completely honest in journaling this weight loss journey! But honestly looking at our behavior is part of the process and its so necessary if we hope to effect lasting change. So here we go...

It's becoming a tradition for us to have lunch at the Chicken Pie Shop after church on Sunday. I am learning how to make that work in this effort to lose weight and be healthier.

I don't really know how to describe the experience of San Diego's Chicken Pie Shop to someone who hasn't been there. It's not that the food is extraordinary. It's not. It's just good, old fashioned, comfort food served in a casual atmosphere by middle aged waitresses. The classic "Pie Dinner" consists of a chicken pie, mashed potatoes, gravy, vegetables, coleslaw, a roll, and pie for dessert. All for $7.50.

The nutritional information isn't available but I have looked up comparable foods and come up with a PointsPlus value of 30 for the meal if I eat half of the roll and the pumpkin part only of the pumpkin pie.

We went yesterday and I did exactly that. But, really I could have eaten half of the meal and been satisfied. There was a point during the meal when I knew I was full. I knew it was time to stop...but I kept eating. I ate the entire meal with the exception of half of the roll and the crust of the pumpkin pie. I foolishly told myself I just wouldn't eat anything else but fruit for the rest of the day....yeah right.

Then in the evening I started grazing...ugh!!

Here it is...

Mixed fruits
Coffee with SF creamer
1 PointsPlus

Pie Dinner
30 PointsPlus

Fage Total 0
VitaCake Mini
Chocolate Chip Cookie
100Calorie Tortilla
FatFree Cheddar Cheese
Laughing Cow Wedges (2)
Brummel & Brown Yogurt Spread
16 PointsPlus

Total 47
Weekly Used 21 / Remaining 11
ActiveLink Earned 1 / Remaining 11

So here is the strategy for next time...because there will be a next time and making this a lifestyle change means learning to enjoy the Chicken Pie Shop Classic Pie Dinner...not avoiding it because of the temptation to over eat. So next week I will have the waitress bring the "to-go" container when she brings the food. I will IMMEDIATELY put half in the container...REMINDING MYSELF THAT I AM NOT BEING DEPRIVED OF HALF THE MEAL!! It will still be mine to eat if I choose to. I just have to eat it on a different day. This is such a simple strategy and we talk about it all the time in my Weight Watcher meetings. But these strategies can do nothing to change my behavior and my relationship to food until I begin to really practice them.

The nighttime grazing...yeah, not so clear on that one. I think if I had used my points more wisely and allowed for a healthy dinner of filling foods. I wouldn't have been so inclined to graze. I think the subtle feeling of having "blown it" at lunch contributed to the grazing in the evening. I'm just calling that one a slip up and focusing on all the evenings I've avoided snacking...and moving on.

When it's all said and done. I am still within my allotted PointsPlus for the week and its okay to use the points to learn. AND I TRACKED EVERY SINGLE BITE...the good, the bad, and the embarrassing!

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Saturday September 22, 2012

Interestingly, our topic this week at Weight Watchers was all about strategies for THE WEEKEND!!

We talked about all the different ways we could better handle the weekend without it being a free for all. There were some great ideas and they all work really well in theory. The problem is that in order for them to work in my real life, I have to actually use them!

I have always taken weekends to pretty much eat what I want with the idea that I'll get "back on plan" on, yeah....maybe that's why it's taken me two years to lose 8 pounds...

So anyway, Saturday was a lot like every Saturday for the past couple of years....or was it?

I started the morning with a sunrise run. 6.52 miles of intervals. Walk 30 seconds/Jog 45 seconds. On my Saturday run I simply keep that pace and work on distance. I included in my collage a picture of the sunrise I got to see this morning.

After my run I had to shower and meet a customer at the shop. I was pressed for time so I grabbed breakfast at the shop after my customer left.
Coffee with SF Creamer
Smart Ones Breakfast Sandwich
A Sliced Apple(didn't finish this)
And a Monster Zero
(I know energy drinks are not good for you but one every once in a while isn't going to kill me)
7 PointsPlus

Then off to my mom's for coffee and a visit. Ended up going to Costco with my sister.
Very Berry Sundae? Why yes, I think I will
10 PointsPlus

Car wash, errands, running around..then home.
The conversation really did go like this..."Have you eaten? I'm going for Hawaiian BBQ"...."Just get something for yourself. I'll fix myself something here"....but my brain was saying "I really like Hawaiian BBQ. "...and the mental back and forth lasted a couple of minutes before my mouth said, "Oh, get me a BBQ Chicken Plate."

Now here's the thing. I KNOW the strategies!! My brain was saying, "Just get the bowl. It's less points and its plenty of food." But my mouth said "I'll have the plate."

When the food arrived at the house my brain was saying "Put half of it away." But I sat down and ate every single bite.

I haven't done that in a while. Afterward it wasn't pleasant. I was overly full and uncomfortable. I hope I remember that feeling the next time.

Was it a catastrophe? No. I ate it. I tracked it. I had the weekly points to cover it. I'm not beating myself up over it. But I am rethinking it. I think I'm finally beginning to learn from these experiences...and THAT is worth the 22 PointsPlus that meal cost me.

Later in the evening I wanted something sweet. I had Greek nonfat yogurt with SF vanilla syrup, cut up banana, and topped with a diced up mini VitaCake.
4 PointsPlus

So, while Saturday appeared to be like every other Saturday for the past couple of really was different in some subtle, yet powerful ways. First of all I TRACKED every single bite. This is HUGE! I didn't throw in the towel and decide to "start fresh" on Monday. I didn't continue to spiral out of control and finish the day with some ridiculous "treat." And finally, I reviewed and thought about my choices and what I could have done better or different...and I learned some things.
So all in all, I'm okay with it :)

Total 43 PointsPlus
Weekly Used 17 / Remaining 32
ActiveLink Points earned 8
Remaining 10

Friday, September 21, 2012

Friday September 21, 2012

Friday September 21, 2012

Friday morning weigh in at my Weight Watcher meeting. I'm down 1.2 pounds this week for a total of 48.4 pounds. I'm closing in on 50 pounds!! So close!!! I want that 50 pound milestone so much. I'm hoping it will be next week. I plan to do my part to make it happen but I do realize that weight loss can be fickle and it might not happen. But I really feel like its going to!!

I'm still working on curbing night time snacking. Tonight I had a cup of vanilla hazelnut tea. It was really nice.

Here's what I ate today...

Coffee with SF vanilla creamer
Low Fat Whole Grain waffles
PB2 Peanut Butter
And sliced banana
7 PointsPlus

Pita sandwich made with a western alternative pita, roast beef, FF cheese slice, spinach and tomatoes, with honey mustard
Carrots zapped in the microwave with salt.
Diet raspberry white tea
6 PointsPlus

Sliced apple

Leftover chicken, potatoes, and sauce, with Shirataki noodles, snap peas and broccoli
Cantaloupe and mango chunks
10 PointsPlus

Total 23 PointsPlus
Weekly used 0 / Remaining 49
ActiveLink earned 2
Remaining 2

Thursday September 20, 2012

As of today I have tracked every single bite every single day for two weeks!
I have also controlled my urge to snack at night. Tonight was challenging. For whatever reason, Thursday nights are a bigger challenge for me. I think it's the idea of the week ending and the new one starting, plus having leftover weekly and activity points...something in all of that brings out the snack cravings in a big way. So, I did end up having a piece of chocolate chip cookie dough, about 2 tablespoons. (Yes, Vern has been keeping cookie dough in the fridge lately!!) But, here's the difference, I STOPPED AFTER THAT ONE CHUNK!!! I realized what was happening, I regrouped, and I stopped!! Huge progress here! I will be sharing this in my WW meeting Friday morning!

Here's an interesting tidbit. I walked to work yesterday. It's one mile from my front door to my shop. Guess how many activity points I earned yesterday? Zero. Just another evidence that I was over estimating activity points before getting my ActiveLink.

So here's my menu:
Smart Ones Breakfast Sandwich
Coffee with SF creamer
7 PointsPlus

Smart Ones Lasagna Florentine
(Yes I need groceries at work)
8 PointsPlus

0 PointsPlus

Stir Fried leftover pork sirloin with
Snap peas and broccoli
Shiritaki "rice" mixed with small amount, 1/3 cup, white rice
9 PointsPlus

FF Greek yogurt with
Mango, strawberries, & grapes
4 PointsPlus

Not pictured:
2tbs chocolate chip cookie dough
3 PointsPlus

Total 31
Weekly used 5, Remaining 6
ActiveLink Earned 0
Remaining 23

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Wednesday September 19, 2012

I started the morning with a 4 mile jog/walk. I have my interval timer set for intervals of walk 30 seconds, jog 45 seconds. But on these weekday runs I've been working on increasing the length of time that I jog. So I follow the interval prompts for the first mile or so, and then I just do a few intervals of jogging as long as I can. Then I go back to the set intervals. I really enjoy these morning runs.

I've been working on curbing my nighttime snacking and I've done well this week. I have also tracked every single day for the past two weeks. Yay me!!

I'm closing in on 50 pounds lost soon and I am excited in anticipating that milestone. It would be awesome to reach it at my weigh in tomorrow but realistically I think it will be the following week.

Here's my menu for Wednesday ...
Smart Ones Breakfast Entree
"Cheesy Scrambled Eggs"
Orange segments
Coffee with SF vanilla creamer
6 PointsPlus

Turkey Sandwich with FF cheese slice, spinach, and tomato on Roman Meal Round Top bread. (I was delighted to learn that this bread has the same PointPlus value as sandwich thins!)
Microwaved French Beans
Special K Popcorn Chips
8 PointsPlus

Baked Pork Sirloin with Panko crumb coating. (I didn't bake these hot enough and the coating was soggy but still tasty)
Pan roasted Brussels sprouts
Shirataki noodles with onion and garlic.
8 PointsPlus

Black grapes
0 PointsPlus

Total 22 PointsPlus
Weekly used 0 / remaining 11
ActiveLink points earned 8
ActiveLink remaining 23

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Tuesday September 18, 2012

This was a good, on plan day. Tuesday is normally one of my run days but my feet and knees were feeling achy so I decided to give it a little break.

Breakfast was a Smart Ones breakfast sandwich, a sliced apple, and coffee with SF vanilla creamer.
7 PointsPlus

Lunch was a roast beef sandwich with FF cheese, tomato slices, and spinach. I had carrots on the side and a diet iced tea.
6 PointsPlus

Dinner was boneless, skinless chicken thighs cooked with onion and 98% FF cream of mushroom soup. Easiest "recipe" ever! I tossed the thighs in a cast iron skillet and browned them along with the sliced onion until the onions started to caramelize. Then I added the mushroom soup and just enough water to thin it down some. I brought it to a boil and then turned it to simmer for about 15-20 minutes. Done!!
I served it with leftover garlic mashed potatoes and sliced tomatoes.
12 PointsPlus

Snack was Fage Total 0 Greek yogurt mixed with PB2 peanut butter powder and sweetened with stevia, and a sliced frozen banana.
5 PointsPlus

Total 30
Weekly Points Used 4 / Remaining 11
ActiveLink Points Earned 0
Remaining 15

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Catching up from the weekend

Sunday we went to one of our favorite Chinese restaurants for lunch after church. I had the house lo mein which is far too many PointsPlus but was oh-so-good! It was lunch and dinner combined and I had the weekly points to cover it so I'm okay with it. Sunday is also my exercise rest day but I was feeling restless in the afternoon/early evening, so I went for a 2.7 mile walk.
Total PointsPlus for the day 31
Weekly pts used 5
ActiveLink pts earned 2/remaining 11

Monday was the third Monday of the month. We take the third Monday of each month off from work. So, after we took our granddaughter to school we grabbed some coffee from Starbucks and went walking in Balboa Park. I should have taken some photos but I didn't...I was too caught up in simply enjoying the morning with my hubby. We ended up going into the zoo and walking around for a couple of hours.

Then it was home, grocery store, prepared garlic mashed potatoes for home fellowship potluck, helped granddaughter with her homework...and then off to fellowship. Whew! My day started at 4 am and ended at around 10pm!!

Home fellowship potluck is always a bit of a challenge for me as I have no control over what will be served. So I just make the best choices I can and call it good. I also have to do a lot of guessing and estimating points. I try to err on the side of overestimating.

So, total PointsPlus for yesterday were 41.
Weekly pts used 15/remaining 15
ActiveLink pts earned 4/remaining 15

Today, Tuesday the 18th is supposed to be a run morning for me. But, I'm having some aches and pains in my feet and knees that make me feel like I need to give my joints and muscles a little break. So no running today.

Okay, I'm off to get ready for work!!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Sunday Morning Reflections

Yesterday I had the opportunity to share my Weight Watcher experience at an open house. It was interesting timing as it came at a time when I've been reflecting on the past almost three years.

I walked into my first Weight Watchers meeting on March 26, 2010 weighing 226 pounds. I was unhappy with the way I looked. I hated seeing photos of myself and seeing what I had become. I had started to get out of breath just walking up the stairs in our condo. My back hurt all the time. In short, I was miserable with myself.

I had recently had the "ah-ha moment" of realizing that I had either been "on a diet" or completely out of control for my whole life. I became obese as a child and began dieting when I was 11 or 12 years old. Now I was 52 years old and still obese in spite of all the diets I had tried. And let me tell you, I tried some pretty crazy diets looking for that magic fix.

I walked into that first meeting having made two commitments to myself. The first was that I was DONE dieting. I was going to use Weight Watchers as a tool to help me to begin a lifestyle change. The second was that I was committed to sticking it out. I was determined to trust the plan and go to meetings no matter how I was doing. I was determined to change my life and work through the issues that had caused me to turn to food over and over again, for comfort, for companionship, for entertainment, for whatever.

That first eight months was almost magical. I worked the plan. I tracked my food. I stuck to it religiously. And on November 26, 2010 I hit 40 pounds lost.

Then it got hard. I can't tell you exactly what the dynamic was/is that happened in my head. But I started feeling like I looked pretty good. I could fit into clothes that I hadn't been able to wear for a long time. I could see a big difference in photographs of myself. People were complimenting me on how good I looked. Getting the weight off became not such an urgent thing in my mind. I began to give myself permission to have this or that because I "was doing pretty good." And I could always get "back on track" next week.

My weigh ins showed my lack of consistency in eating right and tracking. I would be down one week and up the next. Up and down, over and over again for the next 2 years. During that time I managed to take off another 7 pounds, for a total loss so far of 47 pounds.

The crazy thing is that I don't think of these past two years as a failure. On the contrary, these past two years have been victorious ones! Because, here's the thing...all this time I've been learning about myself, about my motivations for eating, for staying on plan or not and learning strategies to overcome these things. I have walked into my Friday morning meetings every single week and stepped on that scale without fear or regret or self loathing.

Sometime the past two years I started running. I can't tell you exactly when I started but I can tell you when I got serious about it. It was in January of this year when I signed up to run the Disneyland Half Marathon on Labor Day weekend. I remember telling my Weight Watcher group that I was going to run a half marathon and one sweet gentleman asked, "You do know that's 13 miles, don't you?" I chuckle when I think about that!

There was one day, shortly after I started running, when I was sitting at a stop light in my car, listening to a song by Mary Mary called "Shackles." the song has these words :

In the corners of mind
I just can't seem to find a reason to believe
That I can break free
'Cause you see I have been down for so long

Feel like the hope is gone
But as I lift my hands, I understand
That I should praise You through my circumstance

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise You
I just wanna praise You

You broke the chains, now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise You
I'm gonna praise You

As I sat at that light, listening and singing along with those words, they suddenly became a prayer and I found myself with tears streaming down my face, crying out to God to help me to be free. Free to view food in a healthy way, free to dance and run and rejoice in the person He created me to be. It was a moment in time but it was a profound few minutes for me. That song is now part of the playlist I listen to when I run and it always takes me back to that moment when I realized how shackled I was by my issues and reminds me of how far I've the grace of God and hard work!

I feel like I'm finally in a place to really begin to lose this 30ish pounds I still need to lose. I am tracking and working on my habits. The big one I'm working on right now is night time snacking...eliminating it.

I finished the half marathon on September 2. My pace was 14.59, slow but steady. Crossing that finish line was one of the most empowering things ever in my life. When my feet ran across that line I knew that I can do anything I decide to do.

The past two years have shown a loss on the scale of 7 pounds...but the change in my life, in how I see myself is huge. I am not the same person I was when I walked into that Weight Watcher meeting two and a half years ago. My life has been, and continues to be, a life transformed.

God's mercy and grace, some hard work on my part, and Weight Watchers have changed my life.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Saturday September 15, 2012

Today I was honored to sit on a success panel at my Weight Watchers location open house. I got to tell a little of my story and how my life has changed.

I ran (wogged...walk/jog intervals) 5.52 miles this morning.

Breakfast was a smoothie made with WW smoothie mix, a banana, and a mini vita cake.

I had some watermelon and a banana around mid-day and them we went to Olive Garden for dinner. I had angel hair pasta with marinara sauce and meatballs, with a serving of dinner salad. I skipped the breadsticks and had water to drink.

Total PointsPlus for the day 40
Weekly Points used 14
Weekly Points Remaining 35
ActiveLink Points Earned 8
ActiveLink Points remaining 9

Friday, September 14, 2012

Friday September 14, 2012

Today's the day I resume daily blogging of my Weight Watchers journey.
Today's weight 178.8
Loss this week 2 pounds
Total loss 47.2 pounds

Smart Ones 3 Cheese Omelet Entree
Coffee with SF Vanilla Creamer

Roast beef sandwich with fat free cheese.
Carrots and green beans

Turkey patty with peppers
Shiritaki Mac n Cheese

Mango & Banana

Total PointsPlus 22
Weekly Points used 0
Weekly Points Remaining 49
Active link points earned 1
Exercise rest day
Active link points remaining 1

My goals for this week are to track every day, stay within my points allowance, and to control night time snacking

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I'm back...

So, I took a long break from the blog. My main reason? Here it is...there was no iPhone Blogger app. Yes, that's the reason.

Here's the deal. I am a very early morning person. My husband is not. My computer is in our bedroom. Yes, I still have a big, clunky computer. No lap top, tablet, or iPad. But I do have an iPhone. So early mornings I grab a cup of coffee and my phone. And I sit in my favorite chair and do "computer stuff." There was no Blogger for iPhone app to make blogging from my phone a realistic possibility so I simply stopped blogging.

But I haven't stopped my journey to a healthier lifestyle. I am still doing Weight Watchers...some weeks better than others. I have started running and I ran my first half marathon on September 2. I did the Disneyland half marathon!! I never in a million years dreamed I would do a half marathon!!

To date I've lost around 48 pounds. It's been a slow process but I feel like I'm making changes that will last a lifetime.

So anyway, here I am. I hope to make blogging part of my regular routine again.

Sunday, September 9, 2012


It's been a long while since I've posted to this blog but I just discovered the iPhone app for Blogger. Hmmmm...this could mean a resurrection of the blog...