Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Yet another "fresh start"...

I can't believe how long it's been since I posted here. Seems to be the story of my life. I decide that I am going to start something and be faithful to do it every day....and I fail to follow through. I'm working on that behavior. So, for today anyway, I am back to blogging.

Along with my fresh start in blogging, I am on day 2 of my fresh start in my low carb life. I have decided to just eat low carb, high fiber, not count claories, and stay off the scale for a couple of weeks and see what happens. I am determined to change my "diet" mentality to a "lifestyle" mentality. I'm finding it difficult. I'm finding myself counting calories in my head as the day goes along. I wonder if that is disordered thinking. I am coming to terms with the idea that I really don't have a healthy relationship with food. It's a hard truth to accept.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

...better days and fresh starts...

Viv is my hair dresser. Viv has been cutting my hair for the better part of 20 years. (or more) She is very much a professional and I trust her opinions on matters of "hair health." I had an appointment with Viv on Saturday morning and we talked about my hair loss. I am very encouraged by what she had to say. She really wasn't concerned with the hair I'm losing. She told me that most of her clients lose hair when they have lost weight. She hasn't really seen a pattern with her clients over the years as to which diets cause shedding. In her opinion it's mainly the stress on the body of losing weight that causes the MILD hair loss. So, in my case, the hair loss doesn't seem to be cause for alot of concern. Now, that being said...I am not experiencing the extreme hair loss that some of my friends who were on Kimkins are experiencing. I saw a photo of one person's (Becky/littlebit) loss and I am not losing my hair that rapidly. So, I am in no way minimizing what others are experiencing. I am only talking about my hair loss. So, onward to better days...

I started Atkin's induction again yesterday. It seems my whole adult life has been a series of restarts! Each time I tell myself that this is really the time that I am going to do it once and for all......and each time I feel like I've failed when I fall off the wagon and have to restart. I think I'm ready to stop feeling like a failure and just realize that this is a journey. There are going to be days when the traveling is easy, the roadmap is clear and I make lots of forward progress...but there are also going to be times when I lose my way...when the road is full of potholes and ruts...when I am not sure which direction I am going and I can't seem to read the map. It's OK...it's all part of the journey....part of the adventure. As long as I don't completely stop moving I have not failed.

Fresh starts are part of the journey....so today is day 2 of my fresh start in my low carb journey.