...it's Monday morning and I am at work...but I am not working. I am battling the urge to worry and fret and be sick to my stomach. This morning, less than ten minutes from now, my son and daughter in law will be sitting in a room with a mediator discussing the terms of ending their marriage and working out the details of splitting up their time with their daughter...my precious girl, Autumn.
I hate this divorce. No wonder the bible says that God hates divorce. (Malachi 2:16) This fragmenting of a family, this reducing it all down to "this is yours, this is mine." It's ugly, it's painful and as much as I want to rest in the knowledge that God has this all under control, I find myself begging Him to work this out the way I think it should be.
So...I am taking a deep breath now. I WILL trust the Lord at all times and I will praise him and trust Him and dwell in the knowledge that He is ultimately in control and His grace and mercy are enough to overcome anything that happens in the lives of those I love.
I will continue to pray that no matter the outcome, God will draw my son, my beautiful granddaughter, and my daughter in law to Himself.