...I'm hoping that talking to myself here on my blog will help me sort this stuff out in my head.
Sunday I was SURE that divorce was looming in my future. But then Sunday Night/Monday morning I wasn't so sure. Vern came to me and told me he was willing to do whatever it was going to take to save this marriage...oh my goodness...I sooo want to believe that. I sooo don't want to have to go through the pain of divorce.
This afternoon, after work, I caught him in another lie...how can you say you want to build a marriage, based on trust, and then intentionally lie? I don't get it.
Maybe I don't get it because it's not rational..maybe that's it.
I asked him to move out.
Did I mention that I lead a small group bible study twice a month? I am going tomorrow night and lay out what's happening in my life to the girls in my study....I am going to step down, I think.
Did I mention that I asked him to move out? I'm sure he won't but I asked him to anyway.