Monday, May 25, 2009

A Faulty Focus....

That's the name of the chapter for this week's bible study....A Faulty Focus....what an appropriate theme for me for this week! As I read the chapter and worked through the questions in the study guide, I realized why I've been feeling so out of sorts lately. My focus has been on the wrong things....

Colossians 3:1-2 Since, then, you have been raised with
Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right
hand of God. Set your hearts on things above, not on earthly things.

Hebrews 12:2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of
our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame,
and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

So this morning I woke up and realized it was time for me to re-focus. Yes, there are some issues between Vern and I that seem insurmountable at times. Yes, I am so sad over the loss of my sweet little Cloe. Those things are real and of course I am going to think about them. But I can choose where my focus will be. I can choose to dwell on those things or I can choose to look up. This morning I chose to look up.

One thing I kept telling myself was that I was not going to do my weigh in this morning. I've had a hard week. I could cut myself some slack...blah, blah, blah. I put one foot in front of the other (after putting on cute socks) and I MADE MYSELF step on the scale! To my amazement I lost .2 pound. I just KNEW I was facing a huge gain! .2 isn't much but it's not a gain! I was relieved to get that out of the way and the pressure of it off of my mind.

I also decided that I could sit around the house and be sad all morning or I could get out and walk. I put my walking shoes on, clipped my pedometer to my waistband, tuned my i-pod to pump worship music to my brain and headed out. I walked about a mile and a half with my favorite praise and worship tunes being pumped to my brain. I used the time to reflect on Jesus and all that He has seen me through and how He has never let me down.....I walked and listened and cried as the weight of the burden of my emotions began to lift from my soul. (thank goodness for big, dark sunglasses)

I stopped at Starbucks when I was almost at home and I had a big cup of coffee while I sat outside in this pretty setting. I felt as though the weight of the world was beginning to lift from my shoulders.

Then I came home and began my on plan day. I might not be able to control all of the circumstances that get thrown my way but I can control where my focus is and how I respond and what I choose to put in my mouth!

I still am not 100%. There is a lingering sadness over Cloe, and this thing between Vern and I...but I am better than I was.....and I am looking up


Joann said...

You're doing great on the weight loss, no gain is a good thing!! I'm sorry that your having problems with Vern, right now, I hope things will get better there, very soon.

Good girl keeping your focus on track!!

Mishel said...

Hi Vicki! Thank you for visiting my blog today. I'm always so unsure of how I should step out and "meet" other bloggers....Amy did it for me and I am blessed that she did.

The Scripture verses you shared are 2 of my favorites. God's Word is new and different every time you read it. He knows your every need and therefore designs each passage to touch you in the way that He knows you need for that exact moment.

I'm looking forward to getting to know you better. I plan on coming back and catching up on past blogs, if that's ok with you.

I'm not aware (yet) of your prayer needs, but we serve a Mighty God who does. On that note, I will pray that God will bless you to overflowing. Be filled with peace and the knowledge that you are loved.
Rest in His embrace, Sheli