Wednesday October 10, 2012
Oh my goodness!! I crumbled and had myself an "I don't give a rip about healthy eating or portion control or moderation" night. I'm not really sure of what's going on in my head this week. We are crazy busy at work, preparing to take a long weekend off. So that stress is always a challenge. But it's more than that. Part of me is bitter about trying so hard last week and gaining a pound. I know it's silly. I know those things happen from time to time. I know weight fluctuates for a myriad of reasons. .....I know all of these things in my head....but I can feel it fluttering around on the outskirts of my consciousness ..."Why bother? You tried so hard last week and you gained anyway." I hear those words in my mind and I push them away. At least I try and push them away...but I still struggle.
It would be so easy if this was easy! It sounds so easy. Just count these points, stay within your allotted points range and you will lose weight. And it really is that easy....physically. It's a matter of calories in verses calories expended...physically. The problem is that it's not just a physical journey. It's a journey that involves emotions and habits and knee jerk reactions that need to be retrained. And that's where the struggle comes in to play.
So on this day I faltered. I had a moment in time that involved pizza and ice cream and an " I don't care" attitude. But it's one moment and its done. So I pick myself up, I brush myself off, and I continue on in this journey.
I am proud of the fact that I tracked it all. There was a time, not so long ago when I wouldn't have tracked a day when I stumbled. So tracking it all is a step forward for me. It's progress.
47 PointsPlus Total
Weekly PointsPlus used 5
Weekly remaining 0
ActiveLink earned 2
ActiveLink used 16
ActiveLink remaining 6
So there we go. Technically I had the PointsPlus weekly and activity allowance to cover my food fest, but its been my experience that it doesn't REALLY cover it. And I wouldn't be at all surprised to show another gain at my weigh in on Friday.
On a happier note, we are leaving right after my WW meeting on Friday for a weekend away at Disneyland, including lunch at Club 33! I am so looking forward to it!!