Thursday, April 9, 2009

Yesterday was one of "Those" days..

Hmmmm..isn't it amazing that yesterday would turn out to be one of "those" days....considering that I publicly announced my desire to learn to be content in any circumstance? It wasn't so much that there was one huge thing that was just one of those days when a multitude of little, irritating things happened to just keep me slightly off kilter.

I was irritated and discontent the whole day. It looks like I have a journey ahead of me in my road to contentment...LOL!

I did, however, in the midst of my crazy busy irritating day, open a box and find this surprise in it. I can't even tell you what a great surprise this was for me! It's "just" a little hair bow for Autumn...from someone who has never met her...just to brighten my day! And brighten my day it did!

I do monogramming for a local baby gift store. They specialize in gifts...beautiful gifts...for babies. Each week I get a box or two from this store with items to be monogramed and sent back to them. The box with the surprise in it had been sitting for a couple of days and when I finally opened it yesterday, there was the hair bow with the little note on it. I cried. I cried not only because of the kidness that Mark showed by thinking of me and thinking of Autumn...but because there is no way that Mark could have known that hairbows are one of Autumn's new favorite things! She has suddenly decided that she LOVES hairbows! So, i saw this as not only kindness from a friend, but I saw God's hand in it. Isn't it lovely how God does thee little things to encourage us in our daily life!?

(this is just me and my weird thought process...but it would be nice if God would also promt people to spell my name right...{giggle}) now I suppose I need to talk about my's not such a good one. I let the day get away from me. I didn't eat breakfast. I wasn't able to take a lunch break until later in the day. My lunch was a good, healthy lunch. A wrap and some Light Progresso soup. I love this soup that Progresso makes. I get it at Costco. There are two different types in the package. One is Light Italin vegetable and the other is Vegetable Noodle. Both are really tasty and filling and only 1.2 points for the whole can. So anyway...lunch was a good one...good choices.

This is where the day sort of fell apart. Vern picked me up from work. Rather than tell him all about the lovely surprise I got...I chose to focus on how frustrated I am at work right now. Then we had to run around and go to Costco, the grocery store, the pet food store....I was sooo hungry. I wish I would have had the good sense to eat a snack before leaving work. Then Vern said..."How many points you got left?"....that's when it really started to slide downhill...LOL.
I asked him why he wanted to know and he answered..."Five dollar pizza." Honestly, I said, "Sure, go ahead. I'll just fix me something simple at home." That was my intention. But then as he was getting out of the car to get the pizza he turned to me and said, "You sure you don't want any?" (He needed to know because he seriously eats a whole pizza, or more, all by himself...I told you it's not fair that I am the fat one...LOL) Anyway...I caved...I said..."yeah, I'll just have some too." At the time I told myself I would have a slice or two and be done. I ate FOUR SLICES!! Oh my goodness.

My issue with it isn't because of the points. I can actually make it fit within my points for the week so technically it isn't "off-plan." But my goal is not so much to satisfy a points plan as it is to stop the unhealthy relationship I have with food. It's for me to be able to sit in front of an open pizza box and not turn into a glutton. So in that respect I feel like last night was a failure. But, I feel good that I woke up this morning with a clear vision in my head of the steps throughout the day that undermined my efforts. So, I am going to consider it another lesson learned in this journey and start fresh today.

I have just one more thing to say this morning and then I am going to run around like a crazy woman trying to get ready for work on time...LOL.

I woke up at some point in the pre-dawn hours with this thought. It's hard to put into words because it was more of a mental image thought type of thing...but anyway. I saw myself picturing God waving His hand and sort of scattering the stars into the heavens, kind of like one would scatter grass seed. But then I felt myself realizing that this wasn't an accurate picture. Then I imagined God carefully placing each star in exactly the right place in the heavens and giving each one a name. It was one of those amazing moments when it felt like God was speaking to my heart. I'll be meditating on that one for a while. It was just such a cool moment that I wanted to share it.

Psalm 8:3-4
When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,

what is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?

Psalm 147:3-5
He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.

He determines the number of the stars
and calls them each by name.

Great is our Lord and mighty in power;
his understanding has no limit.


Carla said...

Vicky, I mean Vicki, Opps Vickie. Just kidding. The bow thing is so lovely. Thanks for sharing.

At this very moment, I wish more than ever that you and I were spread out on some lawn chairs soaking up one another's words like water being warmed by the sun. I have tears down my face at this moment.

Marisa (Trim The Fat) said...

What a special surprise! I love that bow!

Your "cool moment" gave me goosebumps :)

Vickie said...

Carla...You're so funny! It's funny how people misspell my name most of the time!

I wish we could hang out and soak up conversation with each other too! Wouldn't that be great!?

Marisa...welcome home! I missed reading your daily blog posts. I'm glad you're back!

My "cool moment" continues to minister to my heart. I don't claim to come close to beginning to understand yet why God showed me that this morning...but I treasure it because I know it was from Him. I've been thinking about it off and on all day.